After Two Thirty
The Five Minutes After School
Every afternoon, after school, there are five minutes in the car.
Five minutes that I care about more than I probably should.
When they were younger, in preschool, they couldn’t really tell me what happened during the day.
We were still working on communication.
But I still wanted to know everything.
Did they eat?
Did they cry?
In the car, I would ask,
“Were you happy today?”
If I heard “yes,” something inside me settled.
Sometimes there was no answer.
I knew they weren’t ignoring me.
Still, I felt like I was asking too much.
Around first grade, things changed.
They started to talk more.
Most days, they said,
“It was a good day.”
But I always wanted to know:
“Who did you play with?”
Now things have changed again.
“Mom, two questions only.”
She says too many questions give her a headache.
I was a little surprised.
A little disappointed.
But also… I almost laughed.
It sounded like she knew exactly how to deal with me.
Now I choose my two questions carefully.
The rest, I wait for.